Wanting to

I've heard people complain about their jobs.  When asked why they don't quit, they say "I can't.  I need this job."  But what I hear is, "I have weighed the consequences of quitting with the benefits of staying, and I want to stay more than I want to quit."

People like to be victims of circumstance, because it absolves them of responsibility.  But in most situations, we do things because we want to - because the desire to do it outweighs the desire not to do it.

Believe it or not, when I do laundry, I do it because I want to.  Not that I enjoy it particularly, but I want clean clothes and clean sheets, and I want my husband to have clean work pants, and I want the mountain of dirty clothes to turn into a molehill.  When I vacuum, I do it because I want to, even though I hate vacuuming!  I do it because I want to walk around the house barefoot without cat litter sticking to my feet or I want to see the pretty lines on the carpet that prove it is clean.

Lately I've been redefining my definition of "want."  What things do I do because I think I have to?  I don't have to do anything.  I don't have to make Joe dinner, or write blog posts, or brush my teeth.  I do all of these things because the benefits of doing them outweighs the benefits of not doing them.

Duties don't happen to me.  They don't control me.  I choose what to do, and why.  And when I choose to do something, it is because I want to.

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